Peter’s denial of Jesus was a turning point in his spiritual experience. Hours before he had insisted he was willing to die with Jesus. Pointing to the other disciples gathered around them in the darkened garden Peter had declared that even though all of them should desert Jesus he would never do it. Then in the span of a few minutes, he did the very thing he swore he would never do.
Heartbroken and ashamed Peter fled the scene of his greatest failure. Of all the disciples he was the most outspoken, the most impulsive, the most passionate. He was not like the quiet but quick-tempered John or the scheming and grasping Judas. Peter had a healthy sense of self-esteem but a single rash act stripped him of all the delusions he harbored about himself. He saw himself for what he was; fickle, false, and desperate for human approbation.
When Peter left the courtyard outside Caiaphas’ home he had two choices. He could, like Judas, wallow in the misery of what he had done, deeply sorry for the consequences but not truly repenting of the choices that led him there. Or he could choose to acknowledge his sin, repent of it and plead with God for forgiveness.
Peter chose the latter. Weeping and broken he fell on the mercy of God as David had done centuries before confessing his sins and pleading for forgiveness. Peter’s sin didn’t destroy him, it merely broke him so that he could be made whole by the grace of God.